Monday, July 27, 2009

I've got game

Tennis is great game to play, and watch! I started playing tennis for fun back in my early college days. It's a very frustrating, and reminds me alot of music. what I love about both of them, is that no matter how good you get, there's always room for improvement. Which is very true of life in general! (omg no more selfhelp bs!!)

But I joined a tennis group a few weeks back and have gone a few times and have actually wound up meeting some cool people. One of them it turns out knows people that I know, and we've since become facebook friends! haha. so weird. unfortunatly she's probably going to be moving out of state somewhat soon. bummmmmmer.

But at least I have rekindled my tennis playing!

Altering reality

Identify the things that are messed up, and change them! That's also something I'm trying to do more of in my life. It's a cliche, but you really do make your own reality! So much of what is great, and horrible in life is based on perspective. Finding the silver lining can make all the difference.. (this sounds like a zodiac reading. lol)

I really believe in taking responsibility for your own life, and how you act in situations. The cool thing about doing this is your success and your failures are your own! And even if you fail more than you succeed, it's a great feeling. It's easy to look at life and say "Those are the cards I've been dealt" and relinquish control to fate, or blame the situation. But I think the reason most people do that is to make it so it's not their fault how things turn out!

I'm honestly tired of coddling people who view life this way. It's fine if you want to give up power in your life, but when that impacts me, that's when things have to be resolved. And the bad side about this way of thinking is you don't let what others do effect you. Like if someone does something effed up, and it negatively effects me, I rarely blame that person, and instead look at what I did or didn't do. Which let's that other person skate away blame free.

So I'm resolving myself to continue to take responsibility for my life, but also to hold people to certain standards when it impacts me.

*end of self help rant*

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Rising up, back on the streets

I am lousy when it comes to organization and dealing with complacency. When success comes my way I have a tendency to let up. Its probably the reason why I wasn't a great athlete in high school. Physically I could have been, but that determination to be great was lacking.

I really want to cultivate that desire to be great at things. Being mediocre blows! Striving for excellence has to be a major part of my focus from now on, and this extends alllll the way to every part of my life. It's not ok to have just lost some weight, I want to be in great shape! its not enough to have a good paying job..I want a job that is fulfilling, pays great and is something I love doing. I want to be an awesome musician, and sing better..not just average!

I have to raise my standards for everything! And I think organization is the key for me. I created a new calender for myself, and am filling in reminders, and setting up certain times to work on my goals. My hope is that these constant reminders will push me to do what's necessary to really be great at the things that are important to me.

One good quality I do have, is that I'm constantly examining myself (that sounds weird), and trying to keep myself on track. I remember reading a self help book a while back, and one major thing I took from it was that every day is a new opportunity for success. Whatever happened yesterday, is the past..what's important is what you're going to do today!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Mondays make me crazy

Weighed myself this morning and it was not good! I hate the fact that my weight fluxuates so much..i have like 4 lbs swings from day to day. I don't feel like I'm eating more than I did prior to the wedding push, but I must be! blah! I'd really like to lose 20lbs by september! ::hopes:: I'll try to start using the iPhone App LooseIt again, but I'm really bad with keeping up with entering what I've been eating. But if i can't push myself to do that, I'm not serious about my goal. Also want to stay consistant with doing exercises in the morning (or night). have to make this a priority!!

Saw the new iphone 3Gs last night at practice! While it is fast, and the video looks super smooth, the fact that it physically looks the same as my iphone 3G makes it a little easier to wait to upgrade. But I did have fun checking out some of the apps the rest of the band has on their iphones..Mouthoff seemed to be everyone's favorite.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Michael Jackson

I'm not really a fan of dance or R&B, but I think you'd be hard pressed to find someone that lived in the '80s who wasn't a Michael Jackson fan. What I find most interesting about his career is that he seemed pretty uncool, but because he followed his own convictions, he was super cool! You have to admire that in someone..as well as his obvious singing and dancing talents.

He also seemed to be a really gentle person, and as I heard someone say about him recently, "He was a delicate soul, in a cruel world." I've always been fairly sure he was guilty of molesting those kids, but now that he's passed on I am allowing myself to believe maybe he was innocent. He certainly showed very poor judgement, and left himself open to the allegations by having sleepovers with kids, but he seems like such an innocent guy, it's now hard for me to believe he could be capable of it. Having a sleepover with kids is inappropriate, and stupid, but it's a world away from molesting them.

And I don't like Al Shartpon, but he gave a great speech yesterday! Also, I think you're going to see Micael Jackson's daughter become a big star. Just the few words she spoke at the end of the memorial are enough to endear her to the worldwide audience watching. I am really impressed that she had the guts to say what she said. When my grandfather passed away a few years ago, they asked if anyone wanted to say a few words, but I didn't volunteer because I didn't think I could keep it together. It's definitely something I regret so I was really glad to see that she said what she wanted to say and honored her dad.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Life on mars

I really am a East Coast snob! For along time I thought that if you didn't live near a big city like NY, LA, Miami, etc that you probably had nothing to do most of the time, and led a dull and boring life. Which, granted, is totally stupid. But I think some parts of the country are really closing the gap! It'll never be as cool or cultured as NY, but there are a lot of places that are stepping up their game!

Binky Bianca played VA Beach July 4th weekend, and I was impressed! First off, other than the creepy KKK sign, the hospitality we received was so great. Southern charm works on me everytime! And they even have a booming downtown area with midsized highrises, outdoor concerts, 24 hr walmarts, and a ton of stores like Best Buy, Barnes and Nobles, and Chipotle. The annoying parts are having to drive everywhere, the BAD drivers, and the country music (other than tayler swift).

I would definitely recommend it as a vacation spot for a nice summer weekend.

Payback's a bitch muthaefffer, believe me.

I'm not good at payback. It could be a lack of maturity, or my cold German blood, but I have a hard time doing things simply to reciprocate an action. We all do things for each other in life, and while it's human nature to expect your actions will get payed back, I really don't feel its necessary to do so all the time. If you want to do it, and can do it, then OF COURSE you should do it! But I don't think its right to expect payback..or get upset if you're not payed back. Why would you even want someone to do something, or go somewhere that doesn't want to? Although I know its unrealistic and maybe selfish, we should all do what we want because we want to, and not because we feel we have to.

I definitely get roped into doing things out of obligation, but probably 60% of the time I resist. Life's too short! And if we all followed this simple rule, I think we'd be happier.

It could also totally break down our society!

This is so true for me. Good thing its mostly posititive!

Gemini is the third Sign of the Zodiac, and those born under this Sign will be quick to tell you all about it. That's because they love to talk! It's not just idle chatter with these folks, either. The driving force behind a Gemini's conversation is their mind. The Gemini-born are intellectually inclined, forever probing people and places in search of information. The more information a Gemini collects, the better. Sharing that information later on with those they love is also a lot of fun, for Geminis are supremely interested in developing their relationships. Dalliances with these folks are always enjoyable, since Geminis are bright, quick-witted and the proverbial life of the party. Even though their intellectual minds can rationalize forever and a day, Geminis also have a surplus of imagination waiting to be tapped. Can a Gemini be boring? Never!

Since Geminis are a mix of the yin and the yang, they are represented perfectly by the Twins. The Gemini-born can easily see both sides of an issue, a wonderfully practical quality. Less practical is the fact that you're not sure which Twin will show up half the time. Geminis may not know who's showing up either, which can prompt others to consider them fickle and restless.

They can be wishy-washy, too, changing their mood on a simple whim. It's this characteristic which readily suggests the Mutable Quality assigned to this Sign. Mutable folks are flexible and go with the flow. Further, the Twins are adaptable and dexterous and can tackle many things at once. It's a good thing, too, when you consider their myriad interests. The downside of such a curious mind, however, can be a lack of follow-through. How much can any one person do, anyway?